Wow, i just remebered this blog exists a couple days back and finally decided to check it out today. My last post was in 2007 on the night i enlisted. Reading that post brought back so many memories of the years past which have somewhat been forgotten.

2 years have passed since then. 2 years. My elistment into the army which i dreaded and feared so much is now a thing of the past.

I type this post for myself and only myself to read in maybe a couple of years from now. Yes, this is my personal time capsule. What should i blog about now? What will my life be like then? How will i feel then, reading what i blog about now?

i guess i shall start with the obvious: my army experience. For the past 2 years thats all my life has been about... the army army army. Well, i gotta say i had a pretty interesting journey, being a doghandler for the first *almost* year of my ns life will definately be something i can talk about and remember for a long time. Having a total of 6months mc during my service is something to be proud of.

regarding my mc, the wrist surgery which i underwent, will i live to regret it? did i actually make the right decision? even now, memories from a year back seems hazy, trying to recall if it was really beneficial for me then to do the surgery. Did i really lie to myself in order to "chao keng"? did i believe that my wrist really required surgery? DID IT REALLY REQUIRE SURGERY??? I cant remember even now, what i was thinking back then.

but what has been done has been done. i will have to live with the scars and inconvinience of having an injured wrist for the rest of my life. In a few years as i'm reading this post once more, i will know if my 6months was worth it.

I think i have learnt more about myself over the past 2 years... i am definately a procrastinator. i do stupid, really really stupid things when i'm drunk. i am seriously too laid back. i am a much too impulsive person and i dont think important things through enough.

I just remembered, i do have a few significant achievements during the past 2 years.

Achievement no.1: i lost 20kg (from 95 to 75kg!) dropping from a size XL to a M !!! however, at the point in time typing this post i have gone back up to 80kg. I WILL continue to lose weight, and i sincerely hope that when i read this a couple of years from now, i would be at most in the 70-75 region, if not less.

Achievement no.2 : I have finally reduced my regular smoking habit to almost zero (note almost) after being a habitual smoker for more than 5 years. this is indeed a major achievement considering i have been wanting to quit since year 1 of smoking.

Memories are flooding back as i draft this post. There have been 2 major life impacting events for me over the past 2 years. No.1, Losing over 10k in the sunshine empire scam after "investing" 22k. Till this day, i believe this is the stupidest thing have done in my life and i dont think i will ever see a single cent of the 10k ever again, considering it has been almost 1 and a half years. Please i hope i will never do something this dumb that i will regret so badly ever again.

No.2, news of my mother having breast cancer has deeply affected my life, this is partially the reason why i have been able to shed some weight and quit my smoking habit. i fear losing my mother someday. but i will lose her someday. having to see my mother know she has cancer and being brave about it somehow pains me, and i want to help her, live up to her expectations be the kind of guy she wants me to be. yes i love my mother.

Regarding relationships i have, nothing much has changed, my best friends are the same bunch of dudes who have been there for the past years. though azfar and pow are away in aussie studying, they are somehow ever present. i want to see us continue the way we are over the next years and hopefully a lifetime. I still do not have a girlfriend, which i have never gotten in my entire life. however much i yearn for female conpanionship and love, i guess its not a priority in life for me at the moment and being the laid back and lazy person i am, indeed to a certain extent i possibly cannot be bothered to put effort into getting a girlfriend.

Right now the most important thing is my studies which i have only commenced a couple weeks back, and i want to do my parents proud this time around, also this is my final chance to get a good placing in society. i have no idea what kind of life i'll be living when i graduate, not to mention the kind of job i'll be doing.

okay. i'm tired and i want to sleep. i've said so much to my future self and on a final note, i just wanna say, continue to be full of hope, continue to be happy and carefree but i hope the me in 2 or 3 years will be a better person. and i will not have any regrets over events that might happen over the next years.

see you when i see you.